We are pleased to introduce you to Jin, our May 2018 Postpartum Covergirl!
What part of your day feels the most victorious? What are the little moments that make you feel like super mom?
"The days I get all my kids into the car seamlessly without anyone running away, screaming, crying, fighting, getting hurt, or hurting me! When we can get into the car happily we can accomplish anything. Like, Costco."
What postpartum accomplishments are you most proud of?
"Breastfeeding! Even after three babies, those first few weeks and months can seem so daughting. This time around, I actually planned ahead and started pumping to keep up my oversupply so I could donate milk."
What part of your day feels the most challenging? Your biggest struggle.
"My day’s biggest struggle is the late afternoon. When I know there are still a few hours to go before my husband is home, before bedtime, before the end is actually in sight. I find myself feeling exhausted and emotionally drained. Everyday I try to not sink into the grumpiness I feel in my bones as I count the seconds down until my husband is off work."
What challenges have you faced during your postpartum experience?
"The hardest challenge I’ve ever encountered while postpartum, was getting unexpectedly pregnant with my second when my first was only 4 months old. I went from feeling that cloud-9, first baby, postpartum elation to intense dread and anxiety. Those dark feelings lasted the entire pregnancy and eventually morphed into PPD and PPA. I was not emotionally, physically, spiritually, or mentally prepared to have another child. I was both postpartum and prenatal at the same time and I almost lost my mind."
What advice would postpartum YOU give pregnant YOU?
"Everyday is the same and everyday is totally different, and never expect anything else!"
What part of postpartum life surprised you? Caught you off guard? You weren't quite expecting...
"With my first, I was not expecting to need people so much. I had no idea how important having a Village is. I wasn’t expecting to need to ask for help, and have been so humbled by the postpartum time of my life."
"I have had three babies, and each postpartum journey has been totally different. I have felt joy, despair, and pride. Each of these voyages into my new role in motherhood have stretched me paper thin while also filling my soul deeper than I knew possible. I have always felt like I’ve been this source of energy in the universe, floating around with no solid ground. Growing, birthing, and raising my children has given me roots. I have and am, watching them slowly grow with each baby I have. That special, magical year after my babie’s arivial is spent stretching new roots to new places, bonding me with and to new people, and strengthening the bonds already made. Bonds with my family, my husband, my friends, my other children. Sometimes I take a mental step back, and see the incredible, intricate web of connections and relationships I have made in my postpartum journey, and I realize this is how I have cultivated and grown my own stable village. My village holds me up and supports me, while I do the same for others. Its really beautiful. My journey has been beautiful."